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So lovely M is currently vacationing in Tenerife with her fathers family. I just talked to her on the phone, I have a dress on, I swim and swim and swim!! And I'm in "syden" mamma. AAAAA she's so thankful for every bit of joy she can be a part of. I wish I could find true happy in all the little things, not that I think I'm ungrateful but as you get older you can get a bit jaded.

I had a long talk with Sunbeam about liars. And why do people lie? and some so much more than other people?? Personally I admit I lie everyday, white lies and some just to not "go there". To avoid and protect myself. Maby it's a defence mechanism? In what a degree a lie is necessary or unnecessary can be hard to judge. Sometimes you just have to jump into things and forget what it was all about. But as age and maturity comes along it gets easier to know when not to lie and when it is OK. So why do so many people just keep on lying about everything?? Where is the understanding of beeing a grown up? it must be so much hard work keeping up a lie or lies. It is better to just be real and stay true to what you stand for.
In the tv-show House MD, Dr. House has an ongoing comment: everybody lies. And I guess that is true.

The movie, invenntion of lying staring Ricky Gervavis is a movie worth watching.
In a world where everyone can only tell the truth... ...this guy can lie. A funny movie about lying :-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yfUZND486Ik


It took me a while to find the energy to write another post, but after sleeping for a week I finaly did it.


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fruit and vegetable party

And there they go, out the door and into the night.4 fantastic "girls". We just had a great evening together, playing therapy, drinking red wine and eating fruit and vegetables. Feeling so healthy :-D


This game we play, I must say I learn a lot about things I never would have asked about...and it probably says a lot about me that I would Never say out loud. OK, so Miz Tulip (she truly shines with her whole personality) she would actually go to a nudist beach and she would make love if she had only 24 hours left to live (I would eat..). Sunbeam is a really character, wow she surprises me everyday all the time ( even though we are alike in many ways..does that mean I have not that much insight ?) won the game, just flew past us like a cat on fire. And I know now that she has her best moments laying down, not standing or sitting (and for those with impure thoughts now, she likes laying in bed listening to music!).
Player number 5, the one who is now known as the God of pranks , would easily throw a banana peal in your shower, just so that she could have a laugh. Ahh what a lovely bunch. And the 4 player, the nudist with tiny breast ( her own words I swear!) is not really that likely to go to a nudist beach, and she would enjoy a walk in the rain Forest without freaking out. And we all think she is in a bit of trouble if she sees a psychologist, but she thinks she's "normal". Are you?? ;-)

As for myself, I do not think like most people ( according to the inkblots...) So what else is new??
The evening was perfect.

Last night I saw an episode of House MD. It had an interesting view on blogging. Why is it so easy to blog about personal things to strangers? Why put your life out there on the net? Some of the answers were it's easier to write what you think, It's nice to have people comment on what your thoughts are. It's safer when there is not a face there, and in real everyday life we don't talk about things we feel, listen to or experience inside. It's to heavy and could be misinterpreted easily. Blogging is a safe way to express your thoughts and different views on things. It also gives people you love and respect a chance to see what goes on inside your head. Personally I feel free when I blog, I don't have to explain myself right away, I have time to think. People will always talk about other people. In good ways and in bad ways. Blogging gives you a chance to set the record straight. If people say bad things about you, let them read the blog and make up their own mind or talk to the person it concerns. I believe that if you talk about a person that is not present, you should only talk about things you can tell this person face to face. If you can't stand up for what you have said, then there is probably not much truth in it anyway. Put your money where your mouth is ;-D

THE END

Can you please send me the....

"Give Hope"

In just one phone call things can change drastically. Things are no longer the way they were, and everything has to change. It happened to me, has done a lot of times. And every time I have come out on top with help from family and friends. Of coures not in the same state of mind as before, a lot wiser, a bit heartbroken, very thankful and as a changed person.Whether I like it or not. Change is good some people say..I agree.
So I believe things will change for the better this time to, I just have to believe that everything happens for a reason, a really good reason.

"tell me and I'll forget, show me and I'll remember, involve me and I'll understand."

Today I had one of those days when you feel you should have just stayed in bed. I draged myself to Uni, almost slept through the lectures about administering funds in general law practice...zzzzzzzz
The good thing about the day was chatting with my classmates. What a bunch of "gals". Love, love every bit of their personalities. Talking about men/boys, sex, food and sharing crazy stories about x-mas parties, not going to mention names here..but using the salt and pepper shakers to spice up the love life...going to call her miz Tulip, a wonderful woman that I have just gotten to know. And I must not forget lovely Sunbeam, smart and always on top of things,and for taking excellent notes in class. And remember you have a thing to do on Wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After Uni I drove home, got Chivaz and drove off to the stable. Yes, today is Johan day. He is truly my happy pill. For about 3 Horus I have no problems, no pain, no phone calls, no Uni, no bills just a happy horse. The sun was shinning and it felt like spring, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Since he is a former trotter, he loves to run fast. I had decided that today was the day we were going to just let lose and be a bit crazy. I let him run free, I just grabbed his mane, held tight and smiled. His ears pointed strait ahead and I'm sure he smiled to. We rode up and down, in and out of the Forest. After almost an hour we were both sweating, yes it's a lot of work riding horses!!!

"Lass Johan" from Sweden.









My daughter M, the loveliest, prettiest most adorable girl in the world ( who says I'm bias?)
just got her passport renewed. New pictures had to be taken, and believe me it is not easy to tell a 3 year old Not to smile. Because as you know, the picture for the passport has to be without the teeth showing...a neutral face. And M has been told for over 3 year s to SMILE whenever pictures are taken. And even more interesting is taking them int the tiny photo both. Oh my god, thanks for the 12 pictures frames one can choose from or we could still be there taking them over and over again..well she just got the new passport in the mail and When she opened the envelope she shouted : oh thanks mom I love it!! lol ,she is truly happy for everything she gets.

Alice in Wonderland?

Sooooo the grueling exam in sociology and anthropology is OVER. I have never in my life had so much tension about an exam. I just hated every page I turned reading it, and still it's kind of interesting to learn about society,culture and institutions. I did actually learn a great deal about how to sort out the differences in culture, habitus and humanity. And I realise the importance on being reflected and open minded in the line of work I'm about to enter in a few years. So I'm hoping I was just unfocused and a bit stubborn...I guess the lecturer had some influence...needless to say anything more about her..I know I know I am the only one to blame for the result on my exam, so I take full responsibility.

The earthquake in Chile was horrible, I just could not comprehend the happening. A few years back I visited that city, Concepcion. And to know that so many people there have no homes, family members missing or worse, dead. My thoughts go out to all of them.

This week I was given a privilege. I was given insight into a persons deepest concerns and scars.
It did something to me, it opened a door to a place I have not been before. I felt like Alice in not so wonderland. Down the rabbit-hole. I felt like when Alice drinks the bottle and shrinks, I felt very Small and powerless. But somehow, after reflecting and digesting the "story", I felt as I grew into a gigantic self, like Alice drinking from the bottle again and suddenly she's hitting her head on the ceiling. I will forever and ever, as long as I live cherish that moment. I will use that eye opening experience for something right and good. something bad can be turned to something good. well I certainly believe that.
So thanks a million Sunbeam for sharing, the deed has not gone unnoticed.

Some have questioned why I write in English, I will try to explain. Language is the most important thing we use in communication. We use language to express our self and to connect with other people. Habermas, a great philosopher believes in conversation, the good conversation(discourse ethics). I share his thoughts on that. And for me personal I would like to connect and have good conversation across the world. I can only do that by using a common language used by most people. It is also a good way to exercise writing the language, and keeping it fresh. The mind is a muscle that needs constantly training to maintain what is in there. And as I mentioned before I like a challenge.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/J%C3%BCrgen_Habermas


And now it's way past my bedtime zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz